Dealing with Disappointment.

So it’s been a little while since I last posted, and there are a couple reasons for this. 1) The season has come to a close and I haven’t been on any cool trips recently to talk about, and 2) This season for me has been filled with ups and downs that have made me question why I climb, and I wanted to wait to post until I got all my feelings sorted out.

First I’ll give a brief season recap. I trained really hard using personalized Kris Peters training programs, which I have really enjoyed and I have felt huge gains from. I spent a little bit of time working on projects, which turned out to be a fruitless endeavor, and I had a couple of good days where I sent some hard things pretty quickly. All in all, it wasn’t the season I was hoping for, but in the end I think it gave me some good perspective on what actually matters and why I climb.

Now to dive into the disappointment I have felt this season…

I don’t know if things going on in my personal life have made climbing feel more frustrating, or if climbing being frustrating made things feel worse in my personal life… Either way, it’s been a bit of a rough season for me. I came into this spring with a lot of expectation because I had trained really hard and I expected to see the fruits of my labor, AKA I expected to crush all the boulders. This didn’t exactly happen, and with each climbing session, I began to feel the frustration build up more and more, which made each session increasingly less productive. I felt like my attitude with climbing was like a see-saw. There would be moments outside where I was psyched and having fun, and then with the smallest disappointment or failure, my attitude could do a 180 and all of a sudden I wouldn’t be having fun and in those moments the thought of just quitting climbing constantly crossed my mind. Why was I trying so hard at something that I obviously just wasn’t cut out for?!

I was constantly trying to evaluate why I was feeling so frustrated, but every time I thought that I had made it to the other side of my frustration, something would happened to push me right back again. This was my climbing season in a nutshell. Now that the season has come to a close, I have had some time to think about things, and have come to the conclusion that all of my frustration was really just a product of me putting too much emphasis on grades and “how hard I’m climbing”, and putting too little emphasis on how blessed I am to have the following:

  • Amazingly supportive climbing partners who love me even when I have a bad attitude
  • The luxury of having a life that allows me the time and money to pursue my passions and spend a lot of time outside trying to get to the top of big rocks
  • Climbing harder grades has no correlation with being a better person

So, with this season at a close, I am looking forward to continuing my training and gearing up for fall! I have learned a lot over the last 6 months from my training with Kris Peters, and I have found that for me I have seen the biggest gains from working on overall body tension via core and shoulder training. Here is my tentative plan for the summer:

  • 5 weeks of strength training
  • 5 weeks of power training
  • Increased focus on mental training, including meditation
  • Increased focus on having fun and having a good attitude 🙂

I’ll let you know how it goes!!


Cover photo by Grant Kates



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